VBAC after inverted t incision
My friend Desiree inspired me to do this one. I have talked about how I am going to VBAC and all the logistics and preparation and details involved but I haven’t talked about why I want to. I think for a lot of women it is easier to schedule an elective repeat cesarean section (ERCS). Many OB’s do not support VBAC or hospitals have VBAC bans or people have misinformation that does not make VBAC seem like a safe and healthy option.
I know I am certainly one of those women that it would be easier for. It would probably be easier to go ahead and schedule my ERCS now. I was told after Graham was born that due to the inverted t incision scar on my uterus that there was an up to 15% chance of uterine rupture and that it would be best to schedule an ERCS at 36 weeks to avoid any labor. At first, even though I was devastated, it didn’t sound too bad. I didn’t have Graham until 41 weeks 1 day. Having my next baby at 36 weeks kind of sounded great compared to going past 41 weeks. Plus, we had a really hard long labor, 52 hours total, so the thought of skipping all that and just having the baby sounded pretty tempting. That’s how I rationalized it all in my head, to make myself feel better about having had the first c section and about having to have the inverted t incision. I thought, ‘well, at least I don’t have to be pregnant forever and I don’t have to labor just to end up with another c section and I can plan everything.’ But it never really set in and it never really felt right to me. So I started researching.
I already knew that VBAC was a safe and healthy option for moms with bikini cut scars so I didn’t really start out researching VBAC safety as a whole. I started with the inverted t incision because that put me in a whole different category of risk according to the doctors. I looked for the studies that backed up the 15% claim of rate of uterine rupture in a subsequent trial of labor (TOL) and couldn’t find anything. I did find the most commonly quoted rates of 4-9%. So I started thinking that at least that meant there was a 91-96% chance that no rupture would occur. That was motivating. The I found my friend Jessica, another inverted t incision mom. She had started a Yahoo group, Life After Inv T, on her own webiste, Jessica’s Haven, she shared her birth story of a VBAC after inverted t incision. It was the first I had ever heard of this and I was so excited. I didn’t even know it was possible then I realized, she had two other moms stories on her site too. This gave me confidence to start really looking at VBAC as a viable option for me.
One reference that Jessica made as far as determining the safety of VBAC after an inverted t incision was the Landon Study 2004. The Landon Study found a rupture rate of 1.9% for inverted t incision type scars. I was floored. This was the largest VBAC study ever done and the rate was more than half to almost four times less than the smallest rate quotes I had found previously. At this point I got angry. I got angry at all the information I was given after my first c section. I was angry at the suggestion that I purposely deliver a preterm baby when I have always known that it is better for babies to initiate labor, letting us know they are ready to be born. I was angry at the thought of having to endure another c section, not just for my own sake but my baby’s sake. I realized that ERCS tend to be easier on both mom and baby but what if I want a third child? A fourth? Each c section a woman has increases risks of complications. And what about the issues that area associated with babies that are born by c section? They weren’t risk free either were they? My brain was racing and I was again on a quest to learn more.
I have read the Landon Study many many times. I gave my Korean OB a copy of it the first time I met him, in case he had never heard of it. I highlighted all the parts that pertained to me and any other information I thought should be discussed. He was very welcoming of that information and asked me to be sure to bring him anything else I come across that my help me have a better birth or for him to be a better doctor. I really appreciated that support. I found a post on a message board the other day that kind of breaks the Landon Study down a little bit. I am including that information here because there are several points that I want to touch on that really define why I want to VBAC. I am going to bold these points and I am going to italicize any of my own commentary.
The 2004 Landon study in the NEJM (12/2004) is a very good source for UR information. It included nearly 18,000 that had a TOL (trial of labor which may or may not lead to a successful VBAC). The overall rate of UR was 0.7% which translates into 124 uterine ruptures in that group of nearly 18,000. Only 2 of the babies died following a uterine rupture. Keep in mind, the group included women having a TOL after 1, 2, 3 and 4 c-sections. It also included women who classical, invert T and J incision as well as the low tranverse incision (which is most common and considered the safest for a TOL). About 25% of the women in the TOL group had their labors induced (with prostoglandins or pitocin) and/or augmented with pitocin which also increases risk of uterine rupture. About 25% of the women in the TOL group were less than 2 years from their previous c-section. Clearly, there were many other potential risk factors that could come into play here with the risk of UR.
According to this study :
The absolute risk of neontal death is 0.08% with a TOL vs 0.05% in an ERCS; stated otherwise, the risk of neonatal death is 1 in 1250 babies with a TOL vs 1 in 2000 with an ERCS . Babies can die in both a TOL and an ERCS. The difference between the two is very very small as you can see. TOL and ERCS both have risks. There are risks associated with vaginal birth in an unscarred uterus. There are risks associated with getting in a car and driving to work and leaving your house with the oven on and with pretty much everything else we choose to do in life. At least these are calculated risks with firm data to give us an idea of what we are dealing with.
The absolute risk of the mother’s death was 0.04% with an ERCS cs 0.02% with a TOL; stated otherwise, 1 in 2500 mothers will die due to an ERCS vs 1 in 5000 mothers will die with a TOL) Again, very small increase in risks here. Even though the risk of maternal death doubles for an ERCS, it is still under a half of a percent. Compared to the risk of fetal death, the mother’s risk is lower so one could say that VBAC is safer for the mom than it is for the baby but I am not sure that is very accurate since again, all of these numbers are under 1% total. And even if I sound cold or strange, I think for me I have to consider Graham, the child that I already have living here now. While the baby growing in my belly is very important to me, I could not imagine dying and leaving Graham to grow up without a mother. If I were basing my decision on the risk of fetal death vs maternal death, I would choose to lower the risk of maternal death. I have not based my decision to VBAC on comparing these two risks, however, and again, since all the risks are so very low, it’s not really important that I compare them that way. Some people may, but I’m not.
This study also separated out the number of women and the number of UR based on incision type:
- Low transverse incision (n=14,483): 105 ruptures (0.7%)
- Low vertical incision (n=102): 2 ruptures (2.0%)
- Unknown type of incision (n=3206): 15 ruptures (0.5%)
- Classical, inverted T or J incision (n=105): 2 ruptures (1.9%) I can’t really say anything. It’s right there to see. It’s not 15% or 4-9%, it’s 1.9% and I believe this.
- Unclassified (n=2)
It also separated out the number of women based on rates/types of induction:
- Spontaneous labor (n=6682): 24 ruptures (0.4%)
- Augmented labor (n=6009): 52 ruptures (0.9%)
- Induced labor (n=4708): 48 ruptures (1.0%)
- With any prostaglandins, with or without oxytocin (n=926): 13 ruptures (1.4%)
- With prostaglandins alone (n=227): 0 ruptures
- With no prostaglandins (n=1691): 15 ruptures (0.9%)
- With oxytocin alone (n=1864): 20 ruptures (1.1%)
- Not classified (n=496): 0 ruptures
Augmenting and inducing does raise UR (uterine rupture) rates. The numbers are still very small but in the absence of a valid medical reason to augment or induce, I would not do it. I feel that way about unscarred uteri though. Elective induction causes problems whether it’s for a first timer, a VBACer or anyone else.
A Breakdown of the number of previous cesareans (obtained from a subsequent study by Landon in Obstetrics and Gynecology 7/2006) (the women who had more than 1 c-section were grouped together and had a UR risk of 0.9% while the women who had 1 VBAC had a risk of 0.7%):
• 16,915 (94.5%) had 1 prior cesarean
• 871 (4.9%) had 2 cesareans
• 84 (0.5) had 3 cesareans
• 20 (0.1%) with 4 cesareans
8 women had an unknown prior # of c-sections
Risks of choosing a a TOL (trial of labor) vs an ERCS (elective repeat c-section):
•More likely to suffer a uterine rupture – the rupture rate in the TOL group was 0.7%; there were no ruptures in the ERCS group, however, women who presented in early labor and did not have a documented intention to labor were excluded so it is possible that women went into labor before their scheduled c-section and ruptured but were excluded from this study’s data
•1.4 times more like to have a uterine dehisence (typically a benign, thin area in the uterus)
•1.7 times more likely to need a tranfusion
•1.6 times more likely to develop endometriosis
•1.3 times more like to have another adverse event such as (broad ligament hematoma, cystotomy, bowel injury, ureteral injury)
•1.6 times more likely for the baby to die (doesn’t sound like that big of a difference right? Remember that babies only die in about 2-10% of uterine ruptures according to many studies AND babies do die after c-sections.
Risks of choosing an ERCS over a TOL:
•1.5 times more likely to need a hysterectomy I could have lost my uterus the first time, it was T’d secondary to difficult delivery of the head and once removed for cleaning and stitching it was found to be extremely large. So large in fact that they couldn’t get it back in. And it wouldn’t contract. I remember the slight panic in the room in those minutes. Luckily with a few shots of pitocin straight into my shoulder, it contracted and they got it back in. I’d kinda like to avoid that drama this time around. I’d like to have another baby, maybe two after this one.
•2.5 times more likely to have a thromboembolic disease (deep venous thrombosis or pulmonary embolism) I have a blood clotting disorder, prothrombin gene mutation. I am already higher risk for developing a DVT or PE. I do not know the stats but factored in with the risks of developing these issues just by having an ERCS, it is very motivating for me to stay off the operating table. PE is the number one cause of death in pregnant women. So while the data shows a higher rate of death for the ERCS group at 0.04%, mine risk is going to be higher than that, even though I don’t know what the numbers are. It would be pretty hard to find information on risk of death by PE during an ERCS for a woman with PGM. That’s a mouthful.
•2 times more likely for mother to die
Risks of a successful VBAC delivery (remember that TOL can end in repeat c-sections) vs an ERCS:
• 1.2 times more likely to need a transfusion My doc said I could be a little higher risk on this one as my placenta is anterior and if I have any detachment issues after the birth. I am A+ which is an extremely common blood type in Korea and I am delivering at a University hospital in Seoul with plenty of blood in the bank. I feel ok with this.
Risks of an ERCS vs a succcessful VBAC:
•3 times more likely for mother to need a hysterectomy See above. The above stats were for ERCS vs TOL (VBAC attempt whether successful or not). This stat here is for ERCS vs successful VBAC.
•5 times more likely to have a thromboembolic disease (deep venous thrombosis or pulmonary embolism) See above. The above stats were for ERCS vs TOL (VBAC attempt whether successful or not). This stat here is for ERCS vs successful VBAC.
•1.5 times more likely to develop endometriosis
•4 times more likely for mother to die
2 things this study does not address regarding newborns is the incidence of respiratory distress in babies born by elective repeat cesarean which can be quite serious. It also does not address the number of babies that have brain damage as a result of a UR. I want to say the chance of brain damage is about 10-15% when you have a UR but I’d have to double check that. Obviously, UR is very rare but it does happen. When it does happen, UR rarely results in fetal death or brain damage though that too can happen. Babies are usually okay after UR. As far as the mother goes, it doesn’t address the decrease in hospitals stay, post partum surgical infection, etc.
Overall, I feel as if the medical data on the safety of VBAC, fetal death, maternal death, and other complications assure me that VBAC really is the best option. Medical reasons aside, there are emotional reasons as to why I want to VBAC. HERE is the linkt to a fantastic video of a woman and her three births. The first two were c sections and the third was an HBA2C (homebirth after 2 cesareans). Bring tissues.
I just feel like i owe it to my baby to birth it in a natural and peaceful way. I owe it to the baby to come into the world, straight my arms and not into the hands of rough strangers. I want the experience but mostly I want the baby to have the experience. Graham and I were separated the first three hours of his life, that is heartbreaking! Part of giving my baby the peaceful birth is to also birth it without drugs as well. I don’t want the baby to be groggy and disoriented at birth or to have latch or suck issues which is very common with c/s babies, including my first baby. I want immediate skin to skin contact with my baby after it’s born, not for it to go to a warming table where it is suctioned and scrubbed and roughed up so it will cry. None of that is necessary, what’s necessary is the skin to skin contact, with me, with my body heat and my scent and my touch.
I truly believe that how we birth matters. I realize there are women who have c sections and they are happy about them and they had no bad outcomes and their babies were fine after them and emotionally they are happy they had their c sections. I also believe that a lot of women who have an unplanned c section the first time do have some emotional baggage as a result. I think that many women who go on to have ERCS rather than VBAC still think about VBAC and ‘what if’ really aren’t that happy that they had c sections and wonder if they really were necessary or not. I am not a woman who escaped my c section unscathed. II did have a lot of emotional baggage as a result. It’s already been proven that c section moms have a higher rate of postpartum depression and I can attest to that one personally. For me, ultimately, I just believe that I can birth. Even though it didn’t quite work out that way the first time, it doesn’t stop me from believing it or believing that birthing the baby myself is the best option for both me and the baby. I know that I could end up with a repeat c section and I am mentally prepared for that outcomes but it won’t be because I didn’t do the work or set myself up for the best possible scenario. It will be because it truly was necessary and that will be enough for me.
I am really looking forward to my labor. I am looking forward to the contractions and finding my rhythm with them, going off to labor land and having a pretty low intervention peaceful birth. I am looking forward to it because at one point in time I thought I’d never get to do that again but I am getting that chance and I am thankful for it. It seems so far away right now but I bet it will all be in here in no time.Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( 15 so far )
I don’t know if every woman planning to VBAC considers the location of her placenta at all when preparing to birth. I don’t know if it is something commonly thought about or it is brought up by the midwife or doctor at some point. I tend to think that if the mom has an ultrasound and the placenta is posterior (on the back wall of the uterus) that nothing is ever brought up at all and most moms probably never really think much of it. On the flip side, if an u/s is done and the placenta is found to be anterior (on the front wall) then it is mentioned and the mom begins to learn about the risks associated with an anterior placenta when planning to VBAC and she begins crossing her fingers that as her uterus grows that her placenta moves up high above her c section scar. For a mom with a prior bikini cut, ‘high above the scar’ doesn’t require a whole lot of movement as the scar is in the lower segment of the uterus.
I went into my pregnancy thinking about an anterior placenta. I didn’t dwell on it, it just crossed my mind a couple of times because of my inverted t incision. I don’t think I manifested an anterior placenta or anything but because it can create real problems and because I know (too much sometimes) this, I just thought a few times that “I really hope my placenta is not anterior because I don’t want the added worry. ” I began to suspect that it was a week ago though. I found the baby’s heartbeat with my doppler at home at 9weeks and 5 days. It was really hard to find but definitely there. Almost two weeks later I couldn’t find it. I could see it pick up briefly so I knew it was there (plus I totally still feel pregnant!). I never thought I had miscarried or anything like that, I just thought ‘hmm wonder if the placenta is in the way.’ By 11 weeks the placenta is a good size and I figured it was big enough to block the heart tones.
I had my 12 week appointment today and my doc offered to do an u/s. He is a solo practitioner and has a machine in house and I think he likes doing them himself. He would probably offer every month, of course, I have no intention of having a monthly u/s but today when he offered I told him no that I didn’t need one. I found the heartbeat with a doppler and if he wanted to check he could that way. Then I told him I found it a few weeks ago but I couldn’t find it last week and that I thought the placenta was anterior. So he said ‘let’s take a look.’ I knew immediately when I saw the screen and he confirmed. He didn’t seemed worried at all which is great. Most mainstream and American docs would have gotten nervous. He just said, it’s early and it will move and hopefully it moves way up high and out of the way. He also reminded me that scar tissue was very strong. Then he said that if it stayed in the front on top of my scar as it is now, because it is big and my uterus is still small, then it probably wouldn’t cause problems in labor but could cause detachment problems after. He said, ‘you’d still have your vaginal birth and I would take care of everything after, don’t worry.’ I really appreciate his mentality. I can’t imagine too many docs that have that kind of attitude. There are some serious complications that can occur from placentas attaching to c section scars.
AIP= accreta, increta and percreta, where the placenta attaches to the scar or grows into the scar or grows through the scar to the outside of the uterus. It can cause massive hemorrhage and often require hysterectomy. I’m not going to go into too much detail on all this because I am not really too hung up on it. I just didn’t want the anterior placenta so that none of this would have to cross my mind. Because it has crossed my mind I will now think about it until I see that the placenta has moved up and safely away from the scar. If I find that it hasn’t moved, a 3D u/s or an MRI can detect AIP. If there is any AIP then I will obviously have a very different remainder of pregnancy and birth and I can live with it because our safety would be compromised.
Chances are it will probably move up. There is a lot of growing left to do and I know this. There is not any information to be found on VBAC with an inverted t incision and an anterior placenta so I thought I post about it and see what kind of feedback and response I got. If anyone has VBACd with an anterior placenta, please share, regardless of incision type.Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( 24 so far )
I had a c section with Graham because he was left mentum transverse. This means he put his face into my pelvis first, sideways, with his chin on my left hip and his forehead on the right hip. This is considered a vaginally impossible delivery. I can pretty much attest to that as I had 52 hours of contractions without pain medication of any kind. I was upright and active the entire labor. I didn’t even go to the hospital until my water broke with particulate and thick meonium and even then I was 7cm. Because of all of this, it as very difficult to deliver him once the docs were inside so my uterus was cut a second time. The first cut was the standard bikini incision on the lower segment of the uterus and the second cut was perpendicular to that. It was a vertical cut extended into the contractile portion of the uterus. The result is an inverted T incision style scar on my uterus. This type of cut is reserved for emergency or very difficult deliveries. Only about .4% of c section end in this type cut.
American OBs quote the rate of rupture during a trial of labor in a subsequent pregnancy as 10%, 15% or even higher. It was originally recommended that any future babies were delivered by c section at 36 weeks after an amniocentesis to check for lung maturity. This was very disturbing to me on so many levels. First, I would be purposefully delivering a preterm baby. Graham gestated until 41 weeks and 1 day. By that reasoning, he would have been 5 weeks early. It was also concerning because if the rate of rupture was truly that high then was it even sensible to carry another baby at all?
I started digging around and what I found was the most alarming thing of all. The true rupture rate found by the biggest study ever done on VBACs found a rupture rate of only 1.9%. How could it really be that low? How could I be told something so different previously? Where did the doctors that told me 10 and 15% get their info? I have no clue, I have never been able to find any reference or study reporting that high of a rupture rate. It kind of made me mad and when I get mad I get determined. I started reading everything I could find on this type of scar, why the cut is used, what doctors recommend and then I found that women did VBAC with this scar and they did it under the supervision of doctors and midwives that actually supported the idea. I knew I had to find out all of my options before I could consider getting pregnant again.
I learned through ICAN of Atlanta that there is a doctor in Atlanta that would be VBAC supportive after an inverted t incision. He also support VBAC after multiple cesareans, VBAC after classical incisions, twin VBAC, and does breech vaginal. His name is Dr. Tate. I emailed him and talked to him months ago and he was on board when the time came. He was willing to take me as a patient, meet me at the hospital at the onset of labor, only require a saline lock and fetal monitoring and he would stay as long as it took with no pressure how long it took. He was willing to let my body work and do it’s thing without interference. He, like me, believes that the body is capable of birthing without intervention and time constraints and in a higher risk VBAC it is safer to be as hands off as possible. The level of commitment that he was making touched me and motivated me and I knew that was the answer. I could go back to the States in my third trimester and live at Ft. Benning and go to Dr. Tate in Atlanta. I finally had some peace of mind.
Then I found out I was pregnant on November 4th.
Yep, that’s right for all of you that have been guessing, I am pregnant! Due July 15th. It is still very early, I am only 6 weeks along and I didn’t imagine announcing it so soon but I decided that I wanted to blog this experience and I was anxious to get started in case anyone else was going through something similar. So there it is
Once I found out I was pregnant my brain went in overdrive. I was already planning the move to Georgia in my mind and thinking of all the logistical aspects. I was bummed to have to separate my family for such a long period of time but willing to do it. I had decided that I would pretty much do whatever it took to make this trial of labor, my chance to VBAC happen. For me it is that important. I want my next baby to have a gentle peaceful birth. I want my body to experience labor and delivery the way it was meant to. I want to labor. I want to feel my contractions and my body work and my baby work in sync with it. I know it can do it. I am not afraid of labor, I had a very long labor with Graham, I know that I can labor. I am not afraid to birth. I am surrounded by birth, I attend births, I know that my body can birth. I want that moment of realization that I birthed my baby myself. I want to hold my baby the instant it’s born, preferable pulling it out myself. I have had 19 months to process Graham’s birth but I will always hurt that he didn’t get to be with me for the first three hours of his life. How terrifying and confusing it must have been for him to go to the arms of strangers and bright lights and to be force fed formula rather than nurse. I want to give this baby a more gentle entrance, it deserves that. I deserve that.
All that said, I am no fool. I know that I may have to have another c section. If the safety of my baby or my life is compromised, I get that. I have a lot of perspective and knowledge going into this next birth and I know that if we have another c section it is because it was truly necessary and I can live with that.
As all of this was coming out, my friend Karen, suggested that I talk to Dr. Chung. He is a Korean OB that has a solo practice and as the Korean’s say it he has gone the “natural way.” Women seek him out specifically for natural birth. Korea has a 45-50% c section rate and a 90%+ epidural rate for vaginal births. The “natural way” is small population in Korea. Dr. Chung also attends homebirths and has even attended homebirths on post at Yongsan Army Base. This is how Karen and I knew of him. It never occurred to me to ask him but I wasn’t aware that he attended VBACs. Once Karen told me this, I immediately emailed him. He got back in a couple days and said to come see him as soon as possible that he thought he could help me.
OH MY GOODNESS!!! I couldn’t believe it. I may have the option to stay in Korea and do this! I had a question list a mile long. Everything had to be on my terms and my way. I want to do this but it has to be as safely as possible. Here is the list of questions I used…
- Approximately how many VBACs have you attended?
- Of those patients in your practice who wanted a VBAC, how many were successful?
- What do you think my chances are of a VBAC success, given my childbirth history?
- What is your rate of cesarean sections and under what circumstances do you usually advise them?
- Who is your back-up? Is he/she VBAC friendly? Would he/she support my birth plan?
- What hospital(s) do you have privileges at? (Which would you recommend for a VBAC?) (Natural birth?)
- What prenatal tests/procedures do you usually require? Recommend?
- What do you think of Birth Plans/ Preferences?
- How do you usually manage a postdate pregnancy? Or a suspected Cephalopelvic Disproportion (CPD)?
- Do you have a vacation scheduled near my estimated due date?Labor & Delivery
- What’s a reasonable length of time for a VBAC labor if I’m healthy and my baby appears to be healthy?
- Do you know any kind of restriction I should expect from the hospital on a VBAC? (Who do I need to have policy exceptions approved through?)
- How many people can I have with me during the labor and birth?
- How do you feel about doulas?
- What is your usual recommendation for IVs? Pitocin? Confinement to bed?
- What’s your approach if the bag of waters has broken at full term but the mothers feels no contractions?
- In what percentage of your patients do you induce labor?
- Approximately how many of your patients have un-medicated births?
- If my baby is breech will you still consider me for a VBAC? ECV?
- At what point do you arrive at the hospital during labor/delivery?
- What labor positions do you recommend to your patients? Do you encourage movement during labor?
- I do not intend to push on my back. I may stand, kneel, squat or get on my hands and knees. How do you feel about this?
- I would like to push spontaneously and without coaching or counting. I would like help breathing my baby out to reduce tears. Will you do this?
- Do you require continual fetal monitoring for VBAC?
- Do you allow light eating/ drinking during labor?
- Are you OK with No IV – but a Saline Lock?
- I would like a for my labor room to be quiet and undisturbed unless medically necessary. How do you feel about this and can you advocate for me to the hospital staff?
- In the event that I need a c section and there is time, will I be able to have spinal anesthesia rather than general?
The conversation went even further than this list of questions. I spent well over an hour with Dr. Chung yesterday. I was very pleased to learn that he would be willing to show up at the hospital with me at the onset of labor and stay until about two hours after the birth. NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES. There will be no time restrictions. He said that he envisioned his job in my labor and birth as a back up. He said that he felt like he should be there with me and if I need him he will be there. I will be laboring unmedicated so that I can feel any changes to my scar if there are any, and he can respond quickly because he will be in the room with me. He said that he understood the need to labor undisturbed and peacefully so he would be sure to keep staff out of the room unless medically necessary and that he would be an unobtrusive and quiet observer unless medically necessary. He has attended Hypnobirthing training and could certify as a Hypnobirthing practitioner if he wanted and that really got me excited. I am going to be using Hypnobabies and while the programs are different they are similar enough in that the laboring women requires peace and quiet and he totally gets that and is on board. He also said that his job was to let the staff know that my case is a special situation and while we do want little interruption that everyone should be on guard to respond to an emergency at any time. I will be doing this at a very large university hospital in Seoul that is also the most natural birth friendly hospital in the city. There will be pediatrics, NICU, anesthesiology, adequate nursing staff and a back up OB in case I get into trouble. I am also A+ which is great because that blood type is abundant in Korea.
I cannot think of a more perfect scenario given my circumstances.
I would normally be very wary of going to the hospital at the onset of labor and laboring with my doctor present the entire labor but I truly believe that Dr. Chung is going to give me adequate space and time. I don’t believe that his presence will pressure me. I think it will reassure me. Because I know that he isn’t going to put time restraints on me and he will not augment labor in any way, that I can relax. For me, because I have never had a vaginal birth, I need that security of immediate response and there are not many doctors in the world that commit to a patient the way he is committing to me. I know that if I have another c section it will be because it was necessary. I know that he believes that my body can do this and that my body can birth but that if there is trouble he is prepared to repsond accordingly. With that kind of support, I know that I can labor quietly and peacefully and without worry.
So, like my friend Karen said yesterday, I have all the pieces in place, now it is time to switch gears to “I CAN birth my baby” and leave behind the “what if something happens.” She is right. I am ready. I can trust that I am in good hands and in the best case scenario possible for a trial of labor.
For me and my family, this is the best decision and one that I have been working on for a long time. After Dr. Chung and I finished talking yesterday he did an ultrasound and I saw the little tadpole. It finally hit me that I was rally pregnant and not just planning any moreRead Full Post | Make a Comment ( 31 so far )